Girlfriends

Have you ever seen someone and knew that you needed to know them?  Knew that that person was meant  to be your friend and to be an integral part of your life? Knew that there was a reason your paths were crossing and when it was right, something BIG was going to happen.   Just at first glance....

It's only happened to me a few times.  Each time, that person has brought me to a place in my life that I never believed was possible.  Each time, that person has become family to me.  Each time, that person has become one of the most important people in my life. 

One of them taught me that who I am is good enough.  She taught me that there is nothing i could do or say to make her love go away... Nothing.  I know this to the very core of my being.  She is closer than family.  She is my rock.  She has become my trusted sister/friend.  I love her dearly.


One of them has taught me that it is ok to question.  It's ok to feel the bad stuff.  It's ok to trust.  It's ok to be who i am and not have to like me all the time.  She taught me its ok to not act like i'm ok all the time.  

The last of them i don't know well yet.  I knew when I saw her a few years ago that i needed to know her.  That she would become important in my life somehow.   Some instinct told me that she would be someone who would change my life in some way and allow me to rummage around in her life for a time.  I so look forward to finding out what is in store for this relationship. What will she teach me?  What will we teach each other?  


Each of these women are strong, loving, feeling human beings.  (They don't know that, but they are.)  Each of them has so much to give to the world.  Each of them surprise me on a daily basis.  Each of them adds to my life in ways they can't imagine.  Each of them continues to teach me something every day. 

Love

Love is the friendship I have with those special friends in my life who want to know about me.  The ones who care enough to make plans a couple of weeks in advance and then really go through with them.  The ones that i am confident I wont lose touch with when one of us leaves.  The ones that let me be "me" even when that isn't who I want to be.  Love is the new friends who are helping me to go through a seemingly impossible situation - showing me that it is not impossible. 


Love is the relationship with my Brian.  Infuriating, Intoxicating, caring, boundaried, comfortable, conditional - all aspects of the same love. 

Love is the relationship with my boys.  God's gifts to me.  I have no clue what I did to deserve such wonderful gifts. Logan and Sam are my proof that God exists and that He loves me - little old me.


Love is the relationship with family.  Strained, annoying, hurtful, - still love.  This love is old.  Old love that is learning a new way to live.

Love is those five cats and one dog that have my heart.  Who love unconditionaly and without ceasing - every second of every day.  (even when they are batting my tampons all over the floor)

Love is my work.  We help people where I work.  That is our sole purpose.  Love is the client who had no christmas presents for her children because of violence and we were able to do that for her.  Love is the mother who tries to stay clean, tries to get her children back, but just cant make it yet.  Doesn't want it bad enough.  Love is saying goodbye to her.  Love is being there when a rape kit has to be done - just to hold a hand.  Love is the domestic violence survivor who comes back again and again saying she is ready this time to leave...and listening to her.  

Love is my church.  Love is the pastor saying he doesn't care if we give this week to the church, but please give to the leader of the band who needs to be with her family because of the death of her father.  Love is watching almost every member put money in that basket.  Lifepoint is a place of love - incredible, deep love.

Love is color, feeling, texture, taste, sound.   

Love is something different to us all.....